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05 December 2018 @ 07:27 pm
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25 August 2011 @ 09:12 pm
I find the human race to be disgusting. I know i'm hlan and eerthing, but im not going to lie im prettey disgusting on the inside too. People take and take and take. Most never give back. Many live in ignorance, neverb knowing what goes on beyond their cozy snug as a bug homes. im sick of ignorance. im sick of only being able to take. im sick of being ugly, inside and out. i wish more people were honest. i feel lost and helpless sometimes, and i dont know why. its like no one cares, like im talking to myself. i dont want to have someone ask if theres something wrong. i just want people to know. i never know why i feel the way i feel. im lost. really really REALLY, lost.
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Current Mood: bitchybitchy
What other foreign languages do you know? Which one(s) do you want to learn?

I actually speak english and french fluently.  This winter when i start school ill be taking japanese.  And i wanna learn italian. its suuuuch a beautiful language. japanses is too :)
Current Location: France, Morlaix
Current Mood: amusedamused
Current Music: Judas, Lady Gaga
01 August 2011 @ 06:54 pm
so i finally told my parents about what happenned to me.  and they were like ok.  When you get back we'll put you in more therapy.  Which really sucks because i was already in therapy for suicidal attempts and extreme depression, and now we get to add another piece of shit into the mix.  great, fuck you guys.  ill be fine on my own. always have been always will.  and needless to say i wont be telling anyone else after THAT reaction.
Current Mood: annoyedannoyed
11 July 2011 @ 11:34 pm
Today i read someone's post about something awful that happened to her.  Unfortunately it happened to me too.  A guy that i trusted took advantage of tha trust.  It was about a year ago now and really, i never talked about it with anyone, and quite frankly the only reason im posting this is because i dont personally know anyone here.  About a year and 4 months ago i was molested by a guy that i thought i could trust.  I had just gone through an awful breakup and i went to him to talk about what happened.  He took advantage of that weakness and he started to kiss me. Not knowing what to do i just let him keep going.  He put his hands up my shirt, and began to fell me up.  this was the very first time i had been touched like that and ill tell you i was scared as hell.  I was afraid about what was going to happen if he kept going.  He got my bra off, and luckily at that point my phone rang because my dad was calling.  I felt like i barely made it out of there.  Even today i still scrub my skin raw trying to get the feeling of his hands off of me.  It feels rather relieving to finally let this out.  I hope that this never happens to me again, because this was the Sole scariest moment of my life.  it felt like everything was in his control and that he could do whatever he pleased. it wasn't pleasant.  But now after writing this, maybe i can begin to recover.  And maybe follow my own advice and talk to someone about it.
Current Mood: melancholymelancholy
12 January 2011 @ 06:58 pm
Shiver by the Gazette

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29 September 2010 @ 08:39 pm
i have no idea why no one i know can give me a straight damn answer for crap that we do together
20 January 2010 @ 08:06 am
So i got into this big arguement with my parents on monday, my parents being my mom. Shes absolutely batshit. Anyways it was over how she wanted me to stop wearing her cklothes and then i was like maybe if you spent less money on you i would have more dress clothes and then she got all butthurt because i told her that she was disagreealbe all the time and that me and my dad dont want to hang out with her because she so pissy. But yesterday, she comes back all in a good mood from taking my sister back to san diego. She was all like i feel bad for what happened so i went shopping. And she had all these business clothes for me. Wtf is that? Now shes stooped to guilt tactics in the war against "teenage terrorism" as she probably calls it. She so annoying switching back and forth between being nice and beng mean as hell. Ii reaaallly hope she gets back onto her magic pill. The magic pill
does many many many wonders for me.
~Jubilee is here~
Current Mood: amusedamused
08 December 2009 @ 09:38 pm
I love speech. I love expos speeches. I love cheating. DOn't you?

Cypress friday. i dont have my speech memorized. fml
Current Music: Hikari